September 5, 2019 10:54PM
So, for about a year now, I’ve made it my goal to run 5 miles. I have a very “go big or go home” mindset, so I don’t do the “intermittent” running where I walk, then I run, then I walk, I just run, nonstop. Not that intermittent is bad, it’s just not my preferred way of running.
When I was in high school, I played on the varsity soccer team, however, that sport was played in the fall season (where temperatures in certain cities reached to -15 degrees). My hometown reached, sometimes, a low of twenty to thirty degrees Fahrenheit. Any who, my main position was the mid-fielder (you know, the position that has to spring basically the entire time? Yeah, that one), I loved it. During that time, I was in Athletic Training and Anatomy & Physiology, where I learned several facts of the body including that there are things called “slow-twitch fibers” and “fast-twitch fibers”.
What are you getting at Chelsea? I’m getting there, I promise.
When you’re a sprinter, your muscles operate in “fast-twitch fibers” as opposed to long distance runners where their muscles operate in “slow-twitch fibers”. They’re fibers in the muscles. And in the Fall, my lungs would hurt at a pain level of 8 when I would breathe after or during sprinting. In the summer, I would get shortness of breath after a short time. Why? Couldn’t tell you, doctors never figured it out. Could it be a result of muscles weakening from the Multiple Sclerosis I was diagnosed with in 2010?
Honestly, I really couldn’t tell you. It could be a number of things.
SO. When I graduated, I REALLY fell off the “take-care-of-your-body” wagon. Like, really bad. I went through a period of severe depression as well as other unwanted scenarios I wish I would not have let get in my way.
But here’s the thing → Jesus.
What!? That came out of no where! Yeah, He did. Or so it appeared that way. He was always there, but I wasn’t looking at HIM I was too busy looking at my circumstances. BUT, look at this, Jesus said:
“…I have come that they may have life, and that they may have it more abundantly.” -John 10:10 (NKJV)
HE came to give us life, → more abundantly ←. Abundantly (adverb) – in large quantities; plentifully – according to Google. Sometimes, when we mess up, we beat our selves up. As the famous quote goes, “We’re our own worst critic.” But HE is ALWAYS RIGHT THERE with open arms, to give life abundantly.
He’s there when we doubt.
He’s there when we fail.
He’s there when we screw up.
He’s there when we feel worthy, ashamed, or guilty.
He’s always there.
In Matthew 14, Peter asked Jesus to let him walk on the water toward him. So He did. Peter got on the water, started walking toward Jesus, but took his eyes off of Him and sank. Verse 31 states, “And immediately Jesus stretched out His hand and caught him…” (NKJV). Notice how it says, “immediately”? How gentle is He! He is gentle and loving. He is a gentleman. Jesus cares about us, even when we take on more than we can handle and fail. He’s simple-minded and patient, waiting on us to give into Him.
What’s the take away? It’s this. After a period of dealing with all this “junk” I decided I wanted to actually live. You know, not just sit and waste my life away, but actually get up and do something – But I could ONLY do that with Jesus and Jesus alone. Because I TRIED to do it myself. Every time I tried to do it myself, the depression would creep up. Or the anxiety and self-consciousness would tap on my shoulder accompanying the depression. They wanted to dance, but I didn’t and it caused me to fall back a LOT. So I beat myself up for it, because I couldn’t fix myself.
“Be strong and of good courage, do not fear nor be afraid of them; for the Lord your God, He is the One who goes with you. He will not leave you nor forsake you.” -Deuteronomy 31:6 (NKJV)
Thank you JESUS that He won’t leave me, but always pursue me.
Now, I’m gonna be honest here, having a “go-big or go-home” attitude can be good, but it can also be destructive. And I am SO THANKFUL to have a Father in Heaven teach me to take better care of myself. To show me I am WORTHY despite my faults. To love me when I can’t, or couldn’t, love myself. To always pursue me and show me what true love really looks like.
Today, I went for a run and before I went I prayed a simple prayer, “Lord, no shortness of breath. I declare it, allow me to breath normally on this run. Thank you and amen.” A part of me was doing it kind of jokingly, but kind of sincere as well.
I started running at 7:29PM. I came back home around 20ish minutes later, I was not paying too much attention to when I got back, BECAUSE. . .I ran almost 4 miles.
FOUR MILES WITHOUT STOPPING. You know what’s even better? I didn’t have shortness of breath the ENTIRE time. I couldn’t stop running! I couldn’t stop celebrating! I have NEVER been able to do that. And here I am. Healed from heat sensitivity AND lung issues. Both GONE.
Jesus isn’t complicated. He’s simple. When we empty ourselves of everything that isn’t of Him, we see that He was always right there. He’s just patiently waiting for us to seek Him. To talk to Him. He just wants our focus! He just wants us to choose Him!
“But seek first the kingdom of God and His righteousness, and all these things shall be added to you.” -Matthew 6:33 (NKJV)
Matthew 8:14-15 quotes, “Now when Jesus had come into Peter’s house, He saw his wife’s mother lying sick with a fever. So He touched her hand, and the fever left her. And she arose and served them.”
He healed a fever. Something most of us wouldn’t think about. Imagine what He could do, if we gave Him a chance with our whole life and ran to Him rather than from Him.