April 14, 2020 9:22 AM
Yesterday, my roommate and I went on a late night walk. Before we made it home, I was jokingly imitating what Jesus would say in certain scenarios. Mostly when I mess up or when I get caught up in not knowing if I am doing something right. Her and I laughed, then, with her continued smile, she said, “No. He’s really probably smiling saying ‘awe, you’re so cute. That’s not right, but we can keep trying again. I know you’re a baby still learning.’” (some exaggeration).
I paused internally for a moment, because my heart knew how true that was. And in that moment, I needed to be reminded of His gentleness. I have a very facetious personality and although sometimes it can be funny, it’s also easy to hide behind. It is so comfortable to assume hiding behind our humor, and often not intentionally, is a stepping stone in thinking we are healed or one step closer to being intimate with Jesus. But honestly? We need Him BECAUSE we do not know how to handle ourselves. Wholeness is not based on how many jokes we can make on our lives – that’s a facade. Wholeness is when we realize our issues are no longer at the forefront, because He is always on our lips – that’s consuming love.
And you see how good HE is? I didn’t even know I needed to hear that statement until she said that.
This morning I decided to listen to “The Father’s Song” by Upperroom (highly recommended) and there’s a set of lyrics that get me EVERY TIME: “I formed you in your mother’s womb, cause I wanted you.” (Jeremiah 1:5).
HE wanted us.
He wanted me.
He wanted you.
He wants me.
He wants you.
Right here. Right now. For eternity.
So why is it so hard to receive a love we’ve never known or a love we can’t comprehend? Because HIS love is not the same as the world’s. He is not of this world as He’s called us (John 17:16). So, it has to be beyond what we think we know and the only way to “know” Him is to seek Him (Matthew 7:7-8).
Jesus said in John 10:10, “the thief does not come except to steal, and to kill, and to destroy. I (Jesus) have come that they (us) may have life, and that they may have it more abundantly.” Jesus could have just stopped at “…that they may have life…”, but He loves us SO much, that He wanted to give us abundance. Jesus came to give us life, not punishment.
The only way to know and learn of His goodness, is to let Him. Think about it: He came down from His most glorious home, to come down to earth, to be beaten, scourged, bullied, mocked, nailed, pierced, and more, for us.
Jesus is kind. Jesus is gentle. Jesus is merciful. Jesus is everything.
And every time I mess up, He embraces me. He calls me Beloved. He tells me He loves me. He reminds me His mercies are new everyday. He smiles every time I tell Him “Jesus, I love you”. His love isn’t something I can comprehend, but His love isn’t something I can omit from my life. His love has saved me.
And His love heals.